Hayyyy, Life!!!

Way Back Into Love...

I fell inlove with this song the first time I heard it... awwwwww...

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All i want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through whithout a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

What makes you stay?

Look at me
I'm in a place
I never thought I'd be

Don't have the strength
To fight anymore
Or a reason not to leave

So tell me why I still keep holding on
To something I just cannot see

What makes you stay
When your world falls apart
What makes you try one more time
When it's not in your heart
At the end of your rope
When you can't find any hope
You still look at her and say
I just can't walk away
Tell me what makes you stay

I'm not afraid
Of living alone
I was alone before he came

I've been in love
Many times before
But this time's not the same

I've always been the first to say goodbye
Now it's the last thing I can do

What makes you stay
When your world falls apart
What makes you try one more time
When it's not in your heart
At the end of your rope
When you can't find any hope
You still look at her and say
I just can't walk away
Tell me what makes you stay

When it goes this deep
And feels this strong
I can't convince myself
That this love is wrong

What makes you stay
When your world falls apart
What makes you try one more time
When it's not in your heart
At the end of your rope
When you can't find any hope
You still look at her and say
I just can't walk away
Tell me what makes you stay

Songs especially for you...

Stanzas taken from songs that describes the time we've spent together and the feelings we've shared...

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Love Gives Love Takes (The Corrs)

Just when I thought I was safe,

You found me in my hiding place,

I'd promised never again

I wouldn't give my heart, but then

Closer, closer I moved near you

The way I want you makes me fear you

I find it hard to explain

It's crazy, but it's happening

And I'm falling again

Much further than I've ever been

I'm falling deeper than the ocean

I am lost in this emotion

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Tell Me Where It Hurts (Dianne Warren)

Why is that sad look in you eyes

Why are you crying

Tell me now tell me now

Tell me why you're feeling this way

I hate to see you so down .....

Is there anything I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now baby

And I'll do my best to make it better

I'll do my best to make the tears all go away

Just tell me where it hurts now tell me

And I'll love you with a love so tender

And if you let me stay I'll love all the hurt away

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I Love You, Goodbye (Celine Dion)

Wish I could be the one

The one who could give you love

The kind of love you really need

Wish I could say to you

That I'll always stay with you

But baby that's not me

Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a lie.....

You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be

Who'll give you something better

Than the love you'll find with me

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a crime

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

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Tumatakbo (Mojofly)

Laging bigo laging sawi sa pag ibig

Minamalas o kay sakit

May balat nga ba ako sa pwet

Mabuti pa ang tindera sa aming kanto

Nakakaingit TL ang sweet nila ng

Kaniyang nobyo

Gusto ko lang maranasan umibig

Tamaan ni kupido

Tumatakbo ang oras naiiwan na ako

Ng panahon

Di na nagbago bawat araw pare pareho

parang kahapon

Tumatakbo ang oras

Tumatakbo ang oras

Tatanggapin na lang ba ang malupit

Na tadhana o kayay

Tatanggapin na lang ba na akoy

Sadyang hindi pinagpala

Tigilan na ang drama

Punasan na ang luha

Gusto ko lang maranasan ang langit

Tumibok muli ang puso ko

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JUST ANOTHER WOMAN IN LOVE (Anne Murray)

I'm strong, I'm sure, I'm in control, a lady with a plan

Believing that life is a neat little package I hold in my hand

I've got it together, they call me "the girl who knows just what to say and do"

Still I fumble and fall, run into the wall, 'cause when it comes to you, I'm

Just another woman in love, a kid out of school

A fire out of control, just another fool

You touch me and I'm weak, I'm a feather in the wind

And I can't wait to feel you touching me again

With you I'm just another woman, just another woman in love

The perfect Gift for You...

Goodbye.. Though its really hard to say goodbye to someone I truly cared for almost a year,but i guess this is what's best for both of us...

I can barely recall the moment you first make pacute to me.. Seems like ages... when it was just a year ago... I just felt at that moment that you were so sincere, so sensitive, so honest, so... PURE and kindhearted...

Things kinda get rocky and we almost gave up mid-way our "journey"... "Love is blind" > that is how i sum up that chapter of our lives > in three words...

We decided to try again... for the second time around... despite the doubts.. the lies... and the secrets kept... At some point, I wanted to believe that you really cared... that i'm not "just any other girl"...

Then came the awakening... that I will never be the one that you wanted to grow old with... that i'm not the one whom you will want to share your stories and laughters with... And I never even was a prospect... it just happened that i was at the wrong place at the wrong time... Yet i held on... hoping that one day, a miracle would happen...

Time flies so fast... its only 7 days before christmas...

I've been thinking for weeks now...a gift to you... for our first christmas together... Must be something memorable.. something... PERFECT.......

I've looked in so many stores.. been to a number of malls... I just realized last night > i have just the perfect gift..... i just wouldn't acknowledge it... doesnt have the courage to accept it.... it had been there all along... YOUR FREEDOM... the perfect gift.. a sacrifice of love..

I hope things get better for you now... that you find that missing piece that would make you complete... I will be praying for you...

Confused...

Been confused for the longest time :(.. It's a question a little more profound than "which comes first, the egg or the chicken?" Sigh... This has been bugging me for months... and it hurts the more i think of it... But at long last, I've come up with a decision, painful - yet - i know that it is the best thing to do... I've come to realize that holding on is not necessarily the best way of showing someone that you love him/her - sometimes, letting go is... Especially when you know that you will hurt him more the longer you stay... and when you know that he's so over you =(

Tumatakbo

Hmn... Don't know why, but this Mojofly song is so appealing to me :P.. la lang wahehe

Laging bigo, laging sawi sa pag-ibig
Minamalas, o, kay sakit
May balat nga ba ako sa pwet
Mabuti pa ang tindera sa aming kanto
Nakakainggit
TL ang sweet nila ng kaniyang nobyo
Gusto ko lang maranasang umibig, tamaan ni Kupido
Gusto ko lang maranasan ang langit
Tumibok muli ang puso ko

[chorus]
Tumatakbo ang oras
Naiiwan na ako ng panahon
‘Di na nagbago’ng bawat araw
Pare-pareho parang kahapon
Tumatakbo ang oras …ahhh

May birthday cake ka nga
Ngunit wala naman kandila
May Christmas tree na malupet
Wala namang dekorasyong pansabit
Sadyang ganyan ang aking buhay
Walang kasing tamlay
Ayoko sanang tumandang nag-iisa

[chorus]
Tumatakbo ang oras
Naiiwan na ako ng panahon
‘Di na nagbago’ng bawat araw
Pare-pareho parang kahapon
Tumatakbo ang oras …ahhh

Tatanggapin na lang ba
ang malupit na tadhana o kaya’y
Tatanggapin na lang ba
na ako’y sadyang hindi pinagpala
Tigilan na ang drama
Punasan na ang luha, yeah

[chorus]
Tumatakbo ang oras
Naiiwan na ako ng panahon
‘Di na nagbago’ng bawat araw
Pare-pareho parang kahapon
Tumatakbo ang oras …ahhh

Tumatakbo, tumatakbo
Tumatakbo, naiiwan na ako

Find a guy...

La lang... Mganda eh :P

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

A Love Like No Other...

This post is way tooooo late... Been (unbelievably!!!) busy these past few days that I didn't have time for writing this piece, but now, I feel like staying late... i mean, later than I usually do hehehe...

Last July 6,(2006) an officemate proposed to an officemate-friend... ( I know that it was long overdue, but I still want to write this for a friend ;)... )

Sheng has been anticipating (woman's intuition) this proposal that's why it was a little hard for Grandpa (that's how I call his BF, don't ask why, i don't wanna offend him, joke hehehe) to hatch a plot that would really surprise Sheng... I've never thought though, that someone like Grandpa would ever thought of something this sweet ;)...

Here's the well-engineered plan... Our Boss is supposed to have Sheng test something (she's part of the testing team), and Grandpa will be assisting her in recreating the issue... Everyone in our project knows that the proposal is about to take place at around 1130am... I was so excited for her but I was careful not to give her a hint of what was to come...

When the URL to be "tested" was sent to her, all the 90+ people in our floor started standing up and crowding behind them... When the website loaded, Sheng's tears started falling non-stop... There - in the homepage of our DEV server, is a picture of them in the beach, looking at the sun which was about to set, with grandpa sitting and Sheng lying down with her head on grandpa's lap... This picture was taken from their back, and was grayscaled - which added drama to the already romantic pic... And there - embedded in the picture were the lines "Baby, will you be mine forever?"... And something like - "Let's grow old together"...

Grandpa fell on his knees, held Sheng's hand and asked her to marry him... Of course, Sheng said yes, and they hugged and they kissed...

What a beautiful sight to behold...inexplicable...It rendered me breathless for a few seconds...witnessing two people you've know for almost two years, finally wanting to share their lives together...

It was one of the best scenes i've witnessed in my life... I was overwhelmed... I'm not one of the hopeless romantics - but I just realized that my tears have fallen involuntarily... When I looked around, most of the girls were wipping tears, and the guys were pretending to be unaffected (wahehe)...

Love is just love, it can never be explained.

ME and only ME against the world...

July 20 was a bad (as in!!!) day... It was a bleak Thursday morning... I wanted to cover up for a friend because I don’t want her to get upset but it ended up her hating me :( Felt real bad... I don’t wanna give details but I was really hurt... I just don’t wanna talk with her for the mean time...

Welcome to My Life...

     I have this (new) friend, TA, who requested that I write a blog entitled Welcome to my Life or something like that hehehe... And since he’s my friend now, I was obliged... Know what??? I'm just soooo proud that I can make this guy talk and talk and talk... Why? because this guy is the SNOB type of person! (Uy wag tatanggi!) Hehehe... No kidding, this guy is really quiet and serious(????). As in lahat na ng tao sa cube namin nagkukulitan at nagiingay eh sobrang concentrated (ows, kaya????) pa rin sya sa work. That is why Sheng gives me a standing ovation everytime I make TA speak more than five sentences hehehe.... Peace TA, sana di ka nagagalit pag nagkukulitan session kami nila Sheng hehehe...

     TA, this is for you, I am writing this in your honor hahaha...

     So much for the intro... Here it goes...

    

     I was hesitant at first to go to the team building (July 8). I have valid reasons:

           1. Very few people are coming. only 17 signed up - two backed out.

          So we’re only 15.

          2. My friendsters and kulitan - buddies are not coming.

          3. There is a typhoon. I hate going out on rainy days!!!

          4. I am just sooooo tired that I wanna sleep the whole day - Saturday!!!

          5. I still have to do the laundry wahhhh!

          6. And the final and most valid of all... TINATAMAD AKO!!! hehehe kailangan pa bang imemorize yan?

      

      But due to guilt --- Rogel (organizer – friend of mine) keeps on whining about his effort which will be wasted and all the "horrible" things he has to go through :P for the team building ---- (and also due to the no show fee hehehe ) I was forced to go.

     Although the weather didn't cooperate fully (there was a heavy downpour at the middle of the “not-so-Amazing race” (just kidding! hehe) so we had to stop the race mid-way) but overall, it’s was FUN. I did not only enjoy the games but I also got to know my two new angels (huh???)...

     Hmnnn... I’ll present them alphabetically --- so that no one accuses me of favoritism :P hehehe...

     Angel #1 is the “panduck” but cute Jonsai! Opps sorry! – Jovan... He is the very epitome of the word – MAKULIT. In fact my favorite line for him is --- ANG KULIT NG LAHI MO! He loves smoking and is recruiting me to their “it’s time!” sessions :). He is my CLOWN! He’s just sooooo funny. Never fails to make me laugh with his corny – one liner jokes (some of which he’s researching while we’re joketime-chatting hehehe BUKING!!!)... But I really really really pity this kid to the nth degree, (where n=infinity), because he’s been “used” so many times by people who only want his desirable body... Poor kid... tsk tsk... He was abused! Although he always accuses me of being a snob, and despite everything, I love my cute angel... (PS. He doesn’t believe in love but I think he's already found his one true love in our team building and I have pictures to prove that hehehe)...

     Angel #2 is sweet and thoughtful Ken. I don’t know much about him because he’s seryoso most of the time and not as kulit as Jonsai .. Here’s what I know so far .... This kiddo is a great singer – although it’s just hearsay because never heard him sing :)... One of the few bunso I knew that doesn’t act like one. A person who looks seryoso most of the time but claims that he is makulit (???)... Very mabait and thoughtful. Sensible. He’s my ally everytime I make fun of Jonsai... So much for the good things... Here’s the worse part... Hehehe just kidding... It was a shocker when he told me that his first impression of me is that I am – konyo and maarte!!!!!!!! Whattaaaaaa!!!!!!!!! Hahaha I almost fell off my seat laughing when he said that because he’s the only one in my entire existence who had thought of me as konyotic and maarte hehehe... Anyway, I have forgiven him for that... That's my sweet angel, Ken...

     Welcome to my life, angels...

     The sad thing though, is that they are only staying till the 21st (of July)... Anyway, I had lots of fun with these guys for the shortest time I’ve spent with them and I am happy to have met them... I’ll miss these guys for sure...

     I know that I need to say something profound before I conclude... Here it goes...

Roses are red, violets are blue... Flush the toilet, when you are through...